--In which I talk about *gasp*... kinky play with piss, Golden Showers and describe a wonderful memory, a fantasy and thoughts--
So, if you're not into reading about, or enjoying the idea of piss play, Golden Showers, denial, and things of this nature- move along.
If you are, however, read on...
So, for many many years, I would say that I was extremely "vanilla", in my sexual activities and practices. Not that I wouldn't indulge in some different play, but it was all pretty mild, and pretty rare, and in a lot of ways it wasn't something that was allowed and could be openly discussed; in fact in a lot of ways, that's still the case, for much of my time.
However, I have the wonderful delight of sharing with my lover an enjoyment and satisfaction and mutual pleasure in exploring all kinds of sexuality, and a relationship that allows us to discuss honestly and directly things that we want to, things we may fantasize about, and things that we've been able to indulge ourselves in.
One of those things is playing with, talking about, fantasizing about, and experimenting with urine. Piss. Pee. Hot, wet, and taboo- and mmmphf, god. It's interesting that the first time we were ever together, almost before anything else occurred, I put my fingers into her stream as she peed, and tasted it- and in some ways, I think it really helped to let it be a special and grand thing to share together.
Since then, we've talked, and shared more thoughts & fantasies- and we've shared piss, directly, both hers on me and mine on hers, multiple times. We have also, both of us, played in it *for* the other, and played *in* the other's, and we've shared the intimacy of pissing *on* the other, too- and yes, we've both gotten aroused enough, and into it enough, to take it directly to our mouths, too.
There's something about it that strikes a chord in me- the taboo-ness of it? The sheer intimacy and trust it engenders? I'm not sure, but I know I like the feelings, a lot; and lately, I've been thinking about it a lot, and remembering, and dreaming of *more*, and so I thought I'd put it here.
One of the most memorable interludes came when I was spending several weeks in her town, for work- so I was in a hotel, and she managed to arrange things so that we had *tiime*, an amazing amount really, to spend together; and one evening, we were getting ready to go to a special club. We shared some bath time together, and as she stood over me, all tan and nude and sexy, she had to pee...and since I'd expressed an interest in replicating a photo that we'd seen, she squatted over me as I held the camera... and she let her stream flow, sexy hot golden and intimate, so special, to feel her letting that go onto my skin, feel it flowing across my cock and balls and stomach; to know my subby place, as the repository for her piss, gave me such an amazing, such an intensely close & deeply connected feeling...
Then she lowered more, and opened herself to me, and took my cock inside her sweet hot pussy, wet with bubble water, wet with piss, wet with her own sweet juices (Have I noted that she gets *wet*? I mean, *reallly* wet? If not- she does, think puddles and flowing pussy juices, sooo exciting, sooo sexy, sooo hot!)...
We fucked there in the tub, tight and close, and then rinsed off & went on with the night... but I'll never, ever forget that moment, jeez.
Since then, we've had a lot of texts back and forth, sometimes as simple as "Pissing on you", and it never fails to make my heart thump, my breath catch, and (as it is now), frequently my cock throbs & leaks..*squirm* ;)
I recall one moment, as I had her bare foot extended, watching my piss run across her red-painted toes, and seeing her eyes darken and deepen... and, I'll also never forget one moment in another visit to her town, sharing a big jacuzzi bubble-tub... and standing over her, with my piss coming hard and long, as she dripped in it, watching it run down her chest, off her nipples, down her belly & clit & pussy... and having her lift her mouth and catch it...(*squirimmmm*).
One day too, I'm going to indulge in something I've thought of, but haven't done yet- we're going to be out in the woods, wandering, and I'm going to have her strip for me, except for her shoes. Facing away from me, I will watch as she squats low, so her ass is flexed & her cleft is visible from behind, and I'll photograph her pissing, outside in the sunlight; then I'll slip around and catch that from the front, too- and then, I'll have her bring me her sweet pussy, and I'll use my mouth to clean any drips off, so she won't have any stickiness as we finish our walk.
There have been a few times, too, where we've played with denial- I've had her squirming and full, as she has to me- and I *never* knew how intense the arousal can be, just from having a full bladder. Although, hmmm... I suspect that another big component of that, is the fact that if I'm being denied release, it's under her orders and direction; and since when I'm subby, anything at all that she directs me to do is intensely sexy, it could be that, too. One day maybe I'll deny *myself*, and see how much is physical pressure, and how much is emotional and knowing that I'm hers to command, owned by her, and obey her.
Probably a fair amount of it, for me at any rate (She can feel it on her g-spot, but of course I don't have one!), is the knowing/emotions; because it's almost as exciting to know *she's* obeying, if I've instructed her to hold it, or to taste her own stream.
There are a lot of people that I've come across, mostly online, a few that I've known well enough to ask and talk about things like this, and one of the things I've come to know, in the past few years with my darling lover, is that *anything* is okay, if it's a mutual interest and a shared enjoyment.
I've also learned that changing perceptions and pushing boundaries, extending limits, is one of the most exciting things around. I never used to think I'd "ever" want to take piss directly into my mouth, nor that I'd want to piss into hers- (but, that wasn't a hard-limit either)... and now? It's one of the most exciting, memorable, and sexy fantasies and memories that I have; and I'm really really looking forward to indulging that more- from both sides, as the pisser and the pissee (Pissee? Whatever!), anyway- I want to explore that again and again, more and more, and really wish it could be *now*, *more*!