Wednesday, August 17, 2011

The First Post-

Which is always interesting to me, when I cruise around different blogs and sites, to see what people choose to say in the very first post. I'm struck by how many are basically, "I don't know what to put here, so I'm just putting this"... and then go on.

So, I'm going to dive right into some thoughts I've had, about blogging here. I have a different blog, with different subjects, but I no longer feel the urge to post much there. It dealt a lot with depression, with religion, spiritual things, and occasionally I would dive into sex and sensuality and such; but, I also began to feel a bit constrained, somehow, by the readers that I'd gathered and by where I am in my own life now.

So, I thought I'd start a new one completely- and the title was from my darling lover, who suggested it just this afternoon, in an IM session as we were discussing blogs & blogging. Thank you, my sweet!

Yes, I have a lover- and yes, I'm married, and yes, that's bad etc, etc etc. Take your judgements elsewhere, if you feel the need to express that. I don't buy it, not anymore- for one thing I've become much more comfortable with in my old age, (yeah, I'm old enough to know better, and young enough to do it again as they say), is that poly-amorous love is just as real and just as vital and valid as other forms of love. For another, this is my blog and I'll say what I want, lol!

So I might blog about that, I might blog about sailing and travel, I may talk about being lonely within a relationship when surrounded by people. I might post pictures, at times- I love taking photographs, and enjoy seeing all kinds of photos from others.

For now though, I do want to simply express this, so here's an open letter to her, so it's out here in the world:

Dear Precious:

I Love You.

Deeply, very very much, I love you, and treasure our time and who we are, together and as we journey along, sailing wherever, or as you express it, wandering a path, losing it and finding it, our individual treks having led us to a place and time where we could meet, learn about each other, and grow ever closer, ever more special.

I treasure, deeply, the journey we began by sharing blogs, chatting and eventually talking, phones, cams, and finally! meeting, in person for real; I treasure deeply, the acceptance of myself that you give to me, and the unstinting generosity you show me, by your willingness to love me in spite of fears and doubts, to trust in spite of misgivings, to believe in *us* together.

I cherish our rainbow times, our sharing times, as much as I cherish being kinky and explorations of all kinds of play; I have been startled at times, by my own reactions to things I once thought of as 'off limits', as well as being startled by your joyous embrace of things I once thought of as "things women don't like", if you follow that.
I can't wait to send you the URL to here, and share it with you, and hope you'll enjoy my babbling, or, conversely, tell me to shut up when appropriate!

And, here you are, so I'm just going to say, once more,

Love you-